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It's the times that I walk around a city filled with Giants jerseys and Jets fans that I can't help but smile when I see a Bills bumper sticker. It's the moments I share with my fellow Bills fans at our local bars in Manhattan, that only we can celebrate in. It's the hours I waste scouring the Internet just to find a Bills jersey for my dog. It's those times that I have truly cherished being a Bills fan.
When I woke up this morning, filled with disappointment following last night's Monday Night Football game, I was ready to unleash 25 years of pent up aggression against the team. I think any fan would be a liar if they said that they weren't ready to do the same. To hang up the jersey for the season, and walk away. But before I wrote anything, I wanted to be sure abut how I really felt. Because, to be honest, I was really just filled with mixed emotions about the whole thing. Maybe it was more than just disappointment. Maybe it didn't even have anything to do with the team, but more about how I felt about myself.
I think that no matter what team you stand behind or what jersey you wear every Sunday, we all feel and own what is happening around us. People everyday are being laid off (I, unfortunately, am one of them) and many are scrambling to figure out how to get by. The more I thought about the Bills, the more I realized just how much I had in common with them. I was no longer just rooting for the Bills. I was relating to them.
The Bills had finally reached the top of their division and let's all be honest, they had finally earned the respect of their peers. I know how that feels. I had spent so many years trying to figure out how to make it in New York City and when I finally made it to the life I felt I had worked so hard for, it was taken from me. All I had worked for was gone and right now at this moment, I'm facing an uphill battle back. And when I was finally able to say that out loud, I realized that must be how the Bills feel. While maybe being at the bottom wasn't anyone's fault but their own, they like myself, are just looking to survive now. For me, it's the hope that either tomorrow or the day after will be that day when I get that job offer that I've been waiting for. For them, it's the day that they get their next win to keep their hopes alive. I get it now more now than I ever did before.
When I watched Trent Edwards play last night, I was so upset everytime he threw an interception. But underneath it all, I understood him. He was upset, just as upset as I am when I don't get that call back for a job interview or when a phone call with my recruiter doesn't go as well as I had hoped. Lee Evans, Marshawn Lynch, Robert Royal, I related to them, which is why I subconsciously pour my hopes onto them every Sunday. For me, it's no longer about rooting for the underdog. I am the underdog. I'm in this big city just looking for a way to survive, the same way they're looking to survive and make something of themselves again. For a moment, we had it all, and now we have nothing.
I woke up this morning and had to really think if the Bills actually got it. I mean, at the end of the day, win or lose, the players still get paid. But maybe to them, it's more than just a number or a standing now, just the way it's more to me, to just settle for a job for the financial security. Maybe to them it's not really about playing for themselves anymore, but playing for us, the fans. The way that husbands and wives and fathers and mothers all across the country are looking for jobs not for themselves, but for their families. To keep their families going financially, the way that the Bills are trying to keep their fans going emotionally.
When all is said and done, I think we are all trying to survive. Whether you are lucky to have a job or whether, sadly, you don't. Whether you can afford to feed your family or whether you're just scrapping by. It's unfortunately the American way for most of us right now. The Bills, let's face it, are doing the same. Trying to survive in a division where the once elite are now looking to make something of themselves again. I know how it feels. It's a long road ahead for them and it's a long road ahead for me. Until that day that I'm back on top, I work as hard as I can and I make the most out of my day. And for one day a week, just one day, I pour my hopes and dreams onto a team that I know carries the same burdens that I do. Sometimes they win and sometimes they lose. The same way I have my good days and my bad ones. I get it. They get it. And maybe not forever, maybe just for this moment, they really are America's team.
Go Bills.
Started by Carolyn Feb 23
. . . more like a confession. I'm married to a die-hard Bills fan. A sit-in-the-pouring-sleet-shivering Billiac. We lived in Youngstown, NY (he grew up there) for a couple of years and it reminded ... Read More »
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